wrangled and wrinkled.

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Sounds so cliche, but you really have to do everything by yourself. No one will be there to help you. So if you want something done, get off your ass and do it. Pull yourself up by your boot straps and don't rely on anyone, they'll let you down.

Trust only in His trust.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Sometimes I feel like the desires of my life some how impeded on a grand scheme. I feel guilty half of the time, and hopeful the other half. The thing about desire is that you never know how sinful and self serving they actually could be. I'm not really sure about this, but it seems like I keep figuring out the only things in life I want are for me. According to a grand scheme, it's not about me, it's pretty much about everyone else.

I don't feel like I can really trust myself, considering I am so fallen. My self esteem when it comes to deliverance is next to nothing. Guilt sometimes makes me feel like a lost cause. Just when I think I can't get any lower, it tricks me and down I fall.

I guess my ultimate question is: Why do I feel guilty for a pang of neediness in my heart? I was created to need only One, but I often feel so lonely. Should I want and need the things of this world that ultimately reflect God? I feel unworthy enough as it is, but when I start thinking about the possibility I am just reminded how I don't NEED that fulfillment.

I just need some relief and someone to talk to.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Looks like I'm moving studio's again. Ho-hum.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Worked from 7AM to 4PM. Took a break, came home. Then into the studio from 5PM to 10PM. I got a lot done, including RRL's text, stretched a canvas, and started on my show flyer. Pretty productive, but I am exhausted. I get a mini vacation to Ohio this weekend, so that will help.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Walked into a random downstairs apt. in the same building as my studio. I wasn't really informed that someone would be living there. And the back door is the only door I have the key to. Needless to say, it was pretty awkward. Poor people were just enjoying dinner on the couch. So now I need to get the key to the front door so I don't have to cut through the rented apt. So weird. I just saw my landlord at the gas station, and he just said hi and nothing else. We didn't even discuss the situation. Ah, life.

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Recent happenings:
RRL album art
2 possible shows in March
Year 3 24''x 24'' painting
Possible H&W album art?

Monday, February 04, 2008

Longest and most productive weekend in a long while.